I resonate a lot with this. I used to not be able to cry. I don't know when I was able to. I think that switch just flipped on me one day. I still struggle with not letting my feelings out.
“Sometimes I think I’m this way because I’m a writer and other times I think it’s because I’m a girl. Most women have been creating stories for the majority of their lives. Playing house. Playing with dolls. Playing dress up. Storytelling, I think, is inherently feminine.” My favorite part!
I also wonder if there is indeed a dichotomy between narrative and our bodily sensations. As a person who has leaned into body work the last few years, I’ve learned that our bodies carry narratives, too. They may not be with words, but they’re stories nonetheless.
I absolutely agree! I’ve just begun working with a therapist who is more focused on somatics and I’m discovering that sort of mind/body connection through our sessions.
Woweeeee I didn't expect this to resonate so much but it did.
'Even today, the narratives I create about myself and my life have a similar self-serving bent...
Creating a narrative often feels more comfortable than allowing a negative emotion to exist in my body, untethered to some sort of storyline. Feelings are nebulous. A story gives me something seemly concrete to hold on to.'
Loved this. It's kind of fun to recognize the stories you've been telling yourself, and to catch yourself in the act is even more fascinating! I'm with you on this!
this resonated so loudly with me!! my therapist always interrupts me saying: "but is this reality or is this the story you're creating?" it took me a while to understand that it's not wrong of me to create these narratives, it's the way i cope with my own feelings. but the more i move towards this place of actually feeling my feelings in my body instead of in my head, i stop intelectualizing everything through created narratives. i'll be sharing this with my therapist next session!! thank you!!
This cracked something open in me. The part about making yourself the hero or the victim—whew. Felt like being gently called out and held at the same time
Don’t even know which part to highlight that I loved the most because I loved it all. Felt it all. Saw it all. About sight… we refrain from seeing with our eyes but do so with our minds, instead. Our busy minds, the one that wants to protect and (unintentionally) ruin us with comfort. When we don’t have control, we have stories. When we don’t have answers, we make placeholders. Our imagination is what makes us so damn unique and dangerous, lol. I guess that’s what meditation is for. Finally seeing without control, just presence. ♥️
I resonate a lot with this. I used to not be able to cry. I don't know when I was able to. I think that switch just flipped on me one day. I still struggle with not letting my feelings out.
this was so DELICIOUS (weird word?) and resonant, the ending so powerful! i loved every second. you are brilliant
“delicious” is a great word 🫶🏾
“Sometimes I think I’m this way because I’m a writer and other times I think it’s because I’m a girl. Most women have been creating stories for the majority of their lives. Playing house. Playing with dolls. Playing dress up. Storytelling, I think, is inherently feminine.” My favorite part!
heheh hello!
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I also wonder if there is indeed a dichotomy between narrative and our bodily sensations. As a person who has leaned into body work the last few years, I’ve learned that our bodies carry narratives, too. They may not be with words, but they’re stories nonetheless.
I absolutely agree! I’ve just begun working with a therapist who is more focused on somatics and I’m discovering that sort of mind/body connection through our sessions.
it’s really special and insightful to foster that connection. i hope that continues to be fruitful for you :)
Woweeeee I didn't expect this to resonate so much but it did.
'Even today, the narratives I create about myself and my life have a similar self-serving bent...
Creating a narrative often feels more comfortable than allowing a negative emotion to exist in my body, untethered to some sort of storyline. Feelings are nebulous. A story gives me something seemly concrete to hold on to.'
Brutal and brilliant. Very well done
Loved this. It's kind of fun to recognize the stories you've been telling yourself, and to catch yourself in the act is even more fascinating! I'm with you on this!
"But I do wonder if God gave us bodies and sensations to help us understand ourselves."
beautiful as always
Love love love this Celeste ❤️
this resonated so loudly with me!! my therapist always interrupts me saying: "but is this reality or is this the story you're creating?" it took me a while to understand that it's not wrong of me to create these narratives, it's the way i cope with my own feelings. but the more i move towards this place of actually feeling my feelings in my body instead of in my head, i stop intelectualizing everything through created narratives. i'll be sharing this with my therapist next session!! thank you!!
i love this
This cracked something open in me. The part about making yourself the hero or the victim—whew. Felt like being gently called out and held at the same time
Don’t even know which part to highlight that I loved the most because I loved it all. Felt it all. Saw it all. About sight… we refrain from seeing with our eyes but do so with our minds, instead. Our busy minds, the one that wants to protect and (unintentionally) ruin us with comfort. When we don’t have control, we have stories. When we don’t have answers, we make placeholders. Our imagination is what makes us so damn unique and dangerous, lol. I guess that’s what meditation is for. Finally seeing without control, just presence. ♥️