I want to start by saying I totally relate to having a list of stuff I want to buy. I connected so much with that part of your post because I love looking for new things I want to buy. I took my mental list a step further and made it a list on my notes app on my phone. I’ve been checking it off as I acquire the items on the list. I love stuff and I have a lot of stuff already but that doesn’t stop me for shopping around for new stuff.
What is it about things that feel so personal? I went to the park the other day with some sketch books n my reading book and pens and colored pencils and my pencil pouch all packed on my tote with my water bottle and as I layers my items out on my picnic blanket it felt like all these items were an extension of me. Like I here I am among my water bottle and note books and pens and blanket. All items I selected. Maybe it’s the capitalist society that has imprinted these thoughts in me, or maybe it’s human nature to collect things we like and attach ourselves to them a bit...either way the feeling is there.
The thoughts I wake up with in the morning are usually about checking my phone. I’ve been trying to interrupt those thoughts by first saying I am grateful to be alive today or that I am excited for the day. Then I’ll just lay in bed and try and remember my dream.
Last night I dreamed that I loved someone so much. My last relationship ended 4 months ago and I usually dream about the, at least a few times a week. But last night I was in love with someone else, and it felt like a really healthy relationship. Something I have not personally experienced but I believe is out there. That was a very interesting dream. So I thought about that for a while before grabbing my phone to scroll.
I think you hit the nail on the head with what you said about our things being an extension of us. A few months ago I had a conversation with my friend about how we both have never really felt like we've ever had a sense of "home" and she said that home to her, has always been the place where her stuff is at. I keep thinking about that because I relate heavily.
I've been paying attention to my dreams a lot lately too. I like to draw meaning from them, even if there isn't really anything meaning there. I wonder if your dream means that you're ready for the kind of relationship you deserve.
I woke up feeling pretty chaotic. My space is messy and dishes are piling up in the sink which always seems to make its way to my inward energy - I feel instant disorder. I woke up feeling like I had a week's worth of tasks to do when in reality I could do it all in a day. So I throw my sheets in the wash, make myself a cup of coffee, write down a to-do list and hope for the best.
Killing it yet again, Celeste. You inspire me!
I want to start by saying I totally relate to having a list of stuff I want to buy. I connected so much with that part of your post because I love looking for new things I want to buy. I took my mental list a step further and made it a list on my notes app on my phone. I’ve been checking it off as I acquire the items on the list. I love stuff and I have a lot of stuff already but that doesn’t stop me for shopping around for new stuff.
What is it about things that feel so personal? I went to the park the other day with some sketch books n my reading book and pens and colored pencils and my pencil pouch all packed on my tote with my water bottle and as I layers my items out on my picnic blanket it felt like all these items were an extension of me. Like I here I am among my water bottle and note books and pens and blanket. All items I selected. Maybe it’s the capitalist society that has imprinted these thoughts in me, or maybe it’s human nature to collect things we like and attach ourselves to them a bit...either way the feeling is there.
The thoughts I wake up with in the morning are usually about checking my phone. I’ve been trying to interrupt those thoughts by first saying I am grateful to be alive today or that I am excited for the day. Then I’ll just lay in bed and try and remember my dream.
Last night I dreamed that I loved someone so much. My last relationship ended 4 months ago and I usually dream about the, at least a few times a week. But last night I was in love with someone else, and it felt like a really healthy relationship. Something I have not personally experienced but I believe is out there. That was a very interesting dream. So I thought about that for a while before grabbing my phone to scroll.
I think you hit the nail on the head with what you said about our things being an extension of us. A few months ago I had a conversation with my friend about how we both have never really felt like we've ever had a sense of "home" and she said that home to her, has always been the place where her stuff is at. I keep thinking about that because I relate heavily.
I've been paying attention to my dreams a lot lately too. I like to draw meaning from them, even if there isn't really anything meaning there. I wonder if your dream means that you're ready for the kind of relationship you deserve.
Wishing you all the best <3
I woke up feeling pretty chaotic. My space is messy and dishes are piling up in the sink which always seems to make its way to my inward energy - I feel instant disorder. I woke up feeling like I had a week's worth of tasks to do when in reality I could do it all in a day. So I throw my sheets in the wash, make myself a cup of coffee, write down a to-do list and hope for the best.
The thing about disorder making it’s way into your inward energy... so REAL. I hope you have a good day, Sawyer <3